There are so many things people say about life! There are so many facts they shove down your throat in school. It can start to feel impersonal. It can start to feel cold and it can start to feel cheap. Can this be what it’s all about? A bunch of sentences that anybody can say, and then make you learn, and then test you on when they’re trying to figure out if they’ll give you a job?
I want to hear something about life that is special, not cheap.
I want to learn something that makes life seem wonderful and fresh.
I want to hear something that is intimate and directed to me — not something you can study for with a test prep service.
In other words I want a secret teaching. I want to learn it mouth to ear. I want it to feel special, evanescent, and intuitive. I want it to be something I understand with my heart, or maybe my intuition. Higher, unique secret faculties that speak to me from way above my head, with the tongues of angels. I want to open a window and peer at the mysterious workings of this world and other worlds.
Who wouldn’t want that? But I will tell you some things that the secret teaching cannot be:
- there is a mystical essence to the self and the world and they are one
- all is one
- there are other universes and our universe is a pale reflection of them
- there are secret names of God and angels
- there are spiritual beings who walk among us
- there is a secret history that is unfolding.
How do I know that none of these doctrines is a secret doctrine?
Because none of these named doctrines is a secret. You can find them all on the internet with a couple of seconds of googling.
Reincarnation, kabbalah, higher realms, other universes, angels, demons, the secret names of God — not a single one of these is the single, intimate teaching meant for you or me, because every single one of them is public.
The real secret teaching has to be something else. It is secret not because nobody tells it to you but because everybody and everything is telling it to you all the time, or, more accurately, every moment and every conversation you have with every person is giving you a jagged piece of it.
It is scattered into a million million pieces and you have to put it together yourself. I have to put it together myself and tell it to myself — not with words but with my body, my heart, and my life.
That’s the secret teaching — the teaching you teach yourself with every waking and every sleeping moment, every pain and every pleasure, every sadness and joy and fear.
But not what I just wrote. That’s clearly no secret, cause here it is.